Well I deserved it. I can’t say that I could go on so long being such the way that I am without karma coming to bite me in the ass at some point. How can someone walk around all the time, with not real slutty attitude, and be such a flirt without someone freaking out at some point? It’s true that the vast majority of people at university are incredibly hormonal, due to aunt-flow or just the “normal” hormonal changes that go on in men, the damned gender. So it was bound to happen, that I run into some problems and people start getting mad at me, for, how shall we say, get them all rilled up for nothing?
I any case, karma has come back to kick me, the teasy-flirt. Turns out that having a meal-hall crush is just as depressing now as it was in first year. Every since September I have been prancing around campus with the same sort of expectations and observances as before, but it only just hit me last week when I realised something. On whom I had a mealhall crush, was completely aware, and was using it and doing exactly what I do: tease right back.
How could I not have seen it? Really now, I’m such an observant person, but it never dawned on me that it could not be completely obvious of my infatuation, and that someone would mention it or act on it. So when I’m standing at the ommlette line, and talking innocently to Rania, and MHC turns around to stare at me with a devilish smile, I started to get that realisation! This is compounded to the fact that whenever MHC is leaving, I’m sitting, and then eventually staring; they are past me over at the sandwhich bar, and then turns directly to me with the same smirk and stares at me for a moment, basically knowing that I was staring. It’s so unfair.
The same principles and beliefs that I have employed are being redone onto me, and now I’m realising how much of a horrible person I am because of it all! I’m not regretting it, because it’s fun, just I’m realising that it’s coming to bite me in the ass because I know it’s going nowhere. MHC knows I fancy them, isn’t interested, but still is a tease to make me feel worse. I’m sure they wouldn’t be so pro-teasing if they knew that I had anxiety before Christmas. I suppose that was partially my karma, but this is more.
Thus what am I going to do? I’ve decided to tease right back, and play this up as much as humanly possible. I always out-trump people in the awkward category. Therefore I’m going to be such a tease that it actually forces them to be uncomfortable and awkward. I’m not going to crack, No-Sir-E-Boob! I like to see people squirm and get all awkward, and then make them squirm even more. I suspect that said MHC won’t be able to keep up with my awesomeness after one week of such behaviours.
We shall see.