I’ve had a rocky day to say the least. I woke up and felt hung over without drinking last night. I met a good friends boyfriend who’s been witholding him because she knew that he wouldn’t like me. And then the whole thing made me think of the three times that people have told me that I’m the most non-threatening person they have ever met in their lives, and therefore am always a non-issue.

Then I have several conversations with people I know and I paid them nice compliments and they go completely unnoticed and/or purposely ignored. I used to think that I had some fumes of relevance, but after hearing “it makes no different but it’s sweet” I just fell off the deep-end.

When ones importance is so far back in the struggle-bus what’s the point in even trying?