Okay so today I was listening through my random playlist while I was writing a stupid music analysis project that’s 20 pages; such a waste of paper! Anyways, as I was saying, this music came on, and it reminded me of Da Buzz, a group that I heard longwhile ago on Melodifestivalen years ago. Although this wasn’t the song, I have the album on my playlist and ‘Lost without you’ was playing, and well despite having a very fast tempo and everything, it’s quite a sad song which really made me think.

Am I really lost? I don’t think so, but when I hear the song I do feel slightly, is that a problem of some sort, and if so, what the heck do I do about it? Hmmm interesting questions.

[Da Buzz]

Here I go, turn around in my life once again.
There I see, all the love of my life for the last time.

Please tell me I’m wrong
Oh say that you love me
Tell me that you and I will conquer it all…

I’m lost without you, I’m lost if we’re through
I wanna hold you tight
Wanna see your smile, closer than before
I’m lost without you, I’m lost if we’re through
I wanna hold you tight
Wanna love you more, can’t belive it’s true.
I´m lost without you.

A little touch from you lips, I think I will die.
Just a little more of it all, and I know I will loose it all.

Please tell me…

I’m lost, lost in my love
My love for you Will last to eternity,
Im lost without you

Okay so interesting quotes no? Anyways, today was long, all five classes and nothing too interesting. I didn’t fall asleep until about 04.00 last night, so I was very tired for the whole day, and I am going to bed now and it’s about 01.30 so it’s a good time for me!! Just Instrumental Conducting at 08.30 and then I am free until 14.30 to edit my copy of the analysis project, and print it off, and then hand it in, and all in the meantime I am going to pop over to the French department and catch up on some stuff that I am behind on because of our mid-term today. The mid-term wasn’t that exciting, and it wasn’t that hard, but I didn’t seem to remember some literary words.. What’s a sanction and connotation anyways? 🙄 Rather who cares is the question!

I hardly ate today, maybe I should take more time to eat some food that way I won’t be so darn tired all the time! We shall see, and as a result no sign of the M.H.C.! Sad, yes I know but today comes first clue: browned hair >:XX. And now I go running off in an embarrassed scurry so that I can hide away from any that realize how vague I am with everything!

Until tomorrow, when I am actually alive, because I now feel like a zombie!

PS: Another great song by Da Buzz, and nearly my favourite of the album is the following song, which I’m not sure applies to me in any way at this point in my life :o:

“I’ve been waiting for someone like you”

Late at night, when I close my eyes
And think about my life
No misery, he would care for me
That’s how it’s gonna be

Now I, belive that it’s true
Cause I’m standing here with you

I’ve been waiting for someone like you,
Day and night, all of my life
I’ve been waiting for this to come true,
Deep in my heart, I’ve been waiting for someone like you

When you are here, everything is clear
All I wanna have is you
We make the candle light, burn so bright
Then I fall into your arms

Now I belive that it’s true
Cause I’m standing here with you

I’ve been waiting for someone like you,
Day and night, all of my life
I’ve been waiting for this to come true,
Deep in my heart, I’ve been waiting for you

Can you express your feelings, like you did,
I feel so unsecure, cause you´re everything to me
You’re like the sunshine, the birds in the sky,
The stars I see at night, I wanna hold you and take us to the sky

I’ve been waiting for someone like you,
Day and night, all of my life
I’ve been waiting for this to come true, Deep in my heart,
I’ve been waiting for someone like you

Oh wow, at 08.30 hearing a phrase like that is just about the funniest thing that can happen all day! So it happend in conducting class when we are doing weird assymetrical meters were we have to be very precise and visual and silly stuff like that. So Norrah goes up and she is doing it, and it honestly looks like she is throwing out her arm just trying to get the basic pattern down, and afterwards our teacher Dr. Starling just tells here that she’s give’n ‘er really good, that-is-to-say she’s pounding away at it, or something along those lines. I don’t really understand a lot of English slang or idioms, but I try to learn. I don’t think I will be using this slang phrase though, it sounds really ghetto or something!

So after class I do 4 loads of laundry (gosh a lot of clothes), and then allwhile I am doing study notes for my stupid French Literary Analysis course, which I honestly think is the hardest thing. The concepts are the same as in any language, but since a lot of the words I don’t understand or use on a regular basis, I won’t be able to remember them at 09.30 this morning. Oh well, by-the-way, I should probably be in bed now, since it’s 01.42 and test is in few hours.. Oh well we will see..

Other than that, food was good at the cafeteria and I saw my M.H.C. (meal-hall-crush) off in the distance. I still am really sketchy on the details about them, but we will see after awhile. Only like one month left before I go back to Toronto, but still I’m slightly infatuated, despite being an asexual being ❗

I think we play dodgeball tomorrow night as a residence house, but I don’t know if I will. I love to play it, but there is so much drama going on in the house I don’t know if I can manage, and I have a huge music analysis project due on Wednesday which I really need to get a bunch done tomorrow. I figure that I can do a lot of it in a short amount of time since a lot of it is already done anyways.

Oh and another think since I’m rambeling. What’s the deal with all the other non-private universities going on strike? Crazy Canadians don’t know what to do with themselves these days with a stupid conservative government. Learn to become more ‘accepting’ and liberal like the old government of last year! And another thing, I’ve been having weird dreams lately, but more on that later since my eyes and fingers are growing very numb (I think that’s how it’s spelled), meh!