State of confusion

So even the calm after the storm always ends up being quite confusing, and thus the situation of my life remains the same. I guess that after a good conversation with Tobias, I’m feel a tad better but I’m still quite upset about a lot of things going on in my life, and the worst part is that most of them I can’t really control.

Tomorrow I leave for my train at 16.15, and about 80% of this house has left for home already. I’ve had 4 people say goodbye to me formally, and maybe 1 unformally. I guess it really sucks for them (especially the upperclassmen) that don’t know that I won’t be returning next year. Everyone thinks that I’ll be back and kicking again next year here, living in Campbell Hall, but in fact I will be in Strasbourg; and me not telling anyone about it is my revenge of those who have been so rude to me and made me feel like shit. It’s about time that I take matters into my own hands, and do something about situations that I can control. If any of them get mad, then screw them because they don’t care enough to even ask, or even care at all and be nice like the ‘Hunton Spirit’ is supposed to be anyways.

Other than that juicy detail, I’ve packed everything but my rugs, which I need to do tonight because the movers come tomorrow morning at 09.00 to pick up the stuff, and then I will only have suitcases to deal with that go on with me on the train. 26hrs of relaxation and listening to Eurovision and Melodifestivalen songs from the last 4 years of each will be good for me, but the kicker is the fact that my parents are on the waiting side of the train. When I arrive, it’s the end, and I will have to go back to the pathetic life that I don’t have control over. Sigh, we shall see how long it takes for me to freak out at my parents, my guess is 1wk 4days and then a big fight will break out during dinertime, as it always does. Pitty that eh?

And in terms of the ‘other’ situation, I’m still avoiding it, and seeing how long it takes for certian people to do that which they promise to me (which is unlikely). Who knows? -I might get surprised, but I’m doubtful.

And just for the record, made some changes; hope some don’t mind

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